Rubee Tuesday

I've always been a L.A. Woman, growing up in Westchester by LAX. I was the only girl in the family with 3 younger brothers so I was somewhat spoiled. My high school years were great. Lots of concerts at the L.A. forum, and even saw David Bowie's first LA performance at the Hollywood Palladium, I think it was 72. (I was on mushrooms that night. lol!) I lost my virginity at age 14 to a 14-year-old boyfriend. But I didn't really fully enjoy sex until I turned 16 with my 21-year-old boyfriend who was also my manager at a shoe store I worked at. When I was 17 I did various wild things like hitchhiking to the Whiskey A Go Go with 2 girlfriends to see The New York Dolls. Like I said, high school was a blast!! I maintained very good grades in high school and then went to Loyola Marymount University. But I was undecided on what I wanted to do and after changing majors three semesters in a row, I dropped out and moved to Hollywood to be a punk rocker. I lived right across from the Whiskey A Go Go and my life seemed to be one endless party. Between the Whiskey and the Starwood and other venues, there were gigs every night!! I hung out with such bands as MauMaus, Circle jerks, Fear, Castration Squad, Dead Boys, Redd Kross, Black Flag, the Specials, the Germs and more. During this time I worked as a bartender, attended mortician school (really I did!), worked at upscale massage parlors and for a private madam, so had plenty of money to pursue my greatest loves, live music and acting. Unfortunately I also developed a nasty habit so I headed off to rehab. I underwent a religious conversion in rehab and became a Pentecostal born-again Christian. After that I went to community college and took care of senior citizens. But I was craving more excitement in my life so I went to missionary school. In all fairness, even though I consider myself more of a pagan now, it was a wonderful character building experience. And we really were able to practically assist others such as abused children or street kids on (my specialty). I met my husband there. I even had sex with him during my stay at missionary school and of course that was not acceptable behavior. But they liked me and appreciated my compassion for others enough to only give me a reprimand. After I got married we moved to Ventura and I went back to community college, took a lot of drama and dance, and finished up my AA degree in Liberal Arts. I choreographed a gothic type dance for a spring dance concert there to Cat People by David Bowie, and it was well received. I started hanging out with my dance buddies and then transferred to UC Santa Barbara. During this time my marriage crumbled. I completed my B.A. in English from UCSB> I loved that university. I took cool classes like Vampire Literature and hung out on the beach between classes. I also adored studying and learning new things!!! I then transferred to a State University where I did my post-graduate work and got my teaching credential. I moved to Orange County and I taught junior high Language Arts in a difficult area. My first year was inspirational. I had my students do such things as sponsor third world children and write them letters, also we were involved with Amnesty International and when I taught on the Holocaust, I had a friend from college who was an Auschwitz survivor come and speak to the students. My students and I had a great rapport and I loved them dearly. But my second year, my drinking and use had escalated and I had to resign which was heartbreaking. I continued my downward spiral for a few years after and nearly died. But then I had a spiritual awakening, not a religious one (there is a difference!), and got clean and sober. I started tutoring but quickly became very bored and decided to fulfill a fantasy of several years- be a porn star! Besides, that old punk rock spirit refused to die and I thought what a rebel thing to do!! Get into porn after age 40. As you can see I have a great amount of passion and performing on camera is a marvelous adrenaline rush. I also love bondage/fetish because I've always had deep attraction to anything that strayed from the norm, including sexual. It is difficult at times because of 'age discrimination' in porn, but there is less in bdsm/fetish so I'm trying to carve my own niche. Decadence is very appealing to me, so for now, I'm enjoying my self immensely as you can see if you've watched my videos. I still adore going to concerts and the dark passion I feel from my music such as Nine Inch Nails, Industrial/goth, etc. I channel into creative energy on camera. I love exploring my fantasies, both deviant and otherwise on camera and love being an exhibitionist!! 1 As I age and get older I would like to do something to help others again and perhaps remarry, but for now I love to rock on camera for you my beloved fans!!